06/09/2010

So I’ve been busy doing stuff around the house and filling out forms and non sense like that…  I like to look at other peoples blogs and see what’s going on in there life. I know its alot like here but usually more pics… I portray my blog to be the perfect family and I start reading others that get in to their not so perfect life’s .  You know the ones that are grieving and so forth. I have to stop and read about them.  I think to myself I should  do that too but don’t .  A friend told me it irks them that they  people on facebook only wrote about stuff on Memorial Day and not the rest of the year.  I thought about that and as I see it  people whom have never experienced a loss assume that after so many months /years its done and over and you have moved on.   Reality is you have but really haven’t. Its there its always there and will always be there. It really doesn’t go away. If you post all the time how heart broken, people will begin to this your a bit crazy for not moving on and living in the past.   At least Memorial  Day gives you that moment that you ARE allowed to feel guilt free and grieve  for those whom have passed openly without people thinking well its almost been 4 yrs now….. I’m aware we do think about the vetrans that day and what they did for our country… again slightly irritating to me.  My mother is a vetran… She was in Vietnam as a nurse.  They parade the WWII vetrans and I think of her.  She’s the type that you would never know that she was a vetran unless you asked her.  She was with me during the parade as Andrew marched with his Cub Scout Troop and followed behind them with me.  I always thought she should be in the parade and get reconized for being a vetran but that’s not her.  

Oh well  I can go back to my blog and pretend I have a pretty little life right??? 

Reality:

• Dennis has been literally going crazy as he has court tomorrow over giving the middle finger. 
• Have to find him a new pychiatrist as he ticked the last one off….
• Ironically I have Jury duty Monday….Hmm still thinking it could be for his case….since its going to trial (assholes)
• Having fun filling out paperwork for various camps and such hoping Andrew can go to one. I think he would enjoy it
• no to mention the Paperwork for sesrvices for him through OMRDD
• Jonathan has a cold, stitches in his foot, a cut on his cheek, a bloody nose from his cold and still managed to escape his crib.  I got a crib tent last year so I’m using it.  Not putting up a bed as he’s only 16 months and we live in a 2 story house.  Not waking up to find him doing god knows what  where. Not to mention the stairs.