Earliest Childhood Memory

I was looking at the front page of open diary and they had Theme of the week.  It was earliest childhood memory …me with a guilty conscience figured what the hell I guess I will tell what it is.  I lie when I tell when my first memory is, you would too .  I moved to were I live now as I was turning 4 and have memories of were I lived before so I know I was at least 3.  But the one I know for sure was the earliest as its only natural  probably was around 2.5 to 3.  How do I know??? I know I was being potty trained and that is my first memory.  I remember doing what little kids do at that age.  Go and hide behind something and do there business.  Great……  I clearly remember doing this and being able to pull down my pants.   Yeah that’s the memory you want to tell people you know…NOT.  I know every kid does it but  come on its not exactly a high point by any imagination of your life and one you want to forget completely….even at 2.  As I remember knowing then that was not were it went but what I had been doing.  I can’t believe I’m writing this….okay my guilty conscience is over.  I usually tell something about  my parents having a sump pump alarm that would go off and scare the crap out of me and one I know was Easter as I remember collecting easter eggs, another they had a big box and again with it….Or the old Christmas lights, you know the ones were one would go out they would all go out.  I remember my father getting so pissed he stomped on them… 

So the rest of my life…I had clinical today at another big city hospital…. I liked it there too.. I think I like it as you aren’t required to do some of the crazy stuff that they do at other hospitals.  It was boring as hell and we mostly sat around all day, making time go slowly.  I talked too much I think as I told  too much of my screwed up so called life. I hate explaining it. Things came up and couldn’t help it.  Like there was one patient in isolation because of Chicken Pox… come on like I care..I ‘ve gone in a complete circle with that illness.  I had the Chicken Pox bad  when I was a kid and an even worse case of shingles already. I’m done…. They look at me," you had shingles". Yeah I did and it sucked big time!!! 

Dennis when to court ..it was pointless again back and forth stuff and has to go again in a month. This is taken FOREVER for something so dumb.  I’ve been pissed at him the last few days for various reasons.  Of course he got spoiled with me not doing much for the last week and a half and now its back to the regularly scheduled program  and neither of us is quite happy about it.  I’m not as it means I have to get up at some ungodly hour to do this stuff and come home tired to kids that are rambucous and full of it. He has to take care of them and not get to relax whenever .