03/17/2010

 Yesterday:

 I found my little guy on the kitchen table playing with the toaster…..oh boy…..the climbing is getting serious now! Should have known better I watched him climb the kitchen chairs and that its easy from going to that to the kitchen table.  Its only going to be a matter of time that he’s up on the counter helping himself to whatever’s  in the cupboard. He’s quite the little handful.  I get to "experience" all the things that Andrew didn’t put me through.  Don’t worry Andrew gave me a run for my money  in other ways.  I remember being at the hospital and him playing on the floor and he kept throwing his head back and almost cracking it on the ER floor a few times as he sat on the blanket on the floor. He was a bit older then though.  He drooled more too as I look at th e pictures. 
Jonathan still has a cold ….

Other than that I’ve been calling around to get his meds filled and still fighting with the one place for the last 2 days whom pretty much blamed Dennis for not cooperating at all and not wanting help and not to try basically. He didn’t sign the forms they accuse. Funny I dropped him off at the place that day with paperwork in hand with the release forms in there and they were signed.  He got a copy of one (not the release form) back and they are telling me that , that’s not the form???  Are you telling me I can’t read????  Are you telling me that he had a copy of one of the forms and threw the others out???  I read the forms I filled them out and I had him sign them….. one was insurance (got a copy back of that one) one was a questionaire -all the about what was bringing him in there and so forth (2 pages) one was HIPAA  to whom they could release info to, one was a release for med records. I told him that… and he continued on like he didn’t have them.  GRRRRR!!!  MORON!!!  THIS IS THE SUPERVISOR!! Is there any hope?? Then he goes on to say that they don’t tolerate, how do I put this,  harassing people!?! Meaning  he starts in being nasty as hell to them.  They don’t tolerate. That’s what he does, if he didn’t do this he would be fine! He’s going to because he doesn’t like talking about himself so he turns on and picks on you. So throw him in the mental ward , we can’t he says as he’s not a threat to himself.  If you feel threaten by his bullying (you F-ing moron!) I don’t as I know he’s Full of Shit and give it to him back and he WILL listen but you can’t walk around taking everything personal from him.  You can’t make him go if he doesn’t want to.  He’s finally taking his meds regularly and now your uncooperative.  This stupid conversation went on and on as they found pretty much every excuse what they didn’t want or were not going to treat him. Dennis gets mad as I’m on the phone with him longer that he was with him and grabs the phone and tells him that its been too long and doesn’t want me talking about him longer…GOOD BYE!    I look at him "Do you know how that looks??"   I was pissed. " What I said thank you and good bye!"  roll my eyes. Your a moron!

What was he saying about me??
NOthing
HIM:Oh YOU were telling him stuff that I was crazy!?
ME:Roll my eyes* It just looks bad okay.   ( I wish I could have told him that)
ME:Look just don’t start in on them. 
HIM:What do you mean.
ME:You know, I can tell you will call him a fag (he starts in on his fag tirade) 
ME:And you think this behavior is NORMAL? (he stops) 
ME:Do you even know how your perceived?  
HIM:Yeah Arrogant 
ME:That too. People here don’t like New Yorkers(I know we are in new york he knows I mean people from the city) THey also have thin skin for that stuff.
HIM: NO they don’t.  (and he starts in he looks like a cop) 
This goes on …..almost as redundant as talking to the guy at mental health.

TODAY:

I feel like hell. Jonathan has been wanting to sleep with me the last week or so. So he gets up at night and screams. Half asleep I cuddle him and I either fall back to sleep or put him back. I put him back and he kept waking up and screaming which I let him as I didn’t want him in my bed.  Last night I made that mistake and he wanted to sleep on me all night.  I was too tired to put him back.

I still keep thinking about stupid mental health.  The more I think about it the more he was arguing with me about not wanting to treat him and blaming it all on him.  He doesn’t want to do this he doesn’t want to do that you can’t make someone do this.  Screw it why bother with that attitude!  The paperwork was all his fault, he didn’t sign it so they say.  Umm he signed it. He fought with the counselor. , um no he walked out because he didn’t like her attitude.   You can’t force him to take meds. I’m not forcing them down his throat. I don’t even hand him the damn pills. He does it on his own and your telling me its all him. Oh we can’t treat someone who is verbally abusive.  Calling someone a fag is not abusive unless you have thin skin get over it or throw him in the mental ward.  We can’t do that unless he makes a threat. ( Hmmm. tell him your Italian, even better catholic and see him go off) the only ones he really hates are Italians.  I actually find this amusing as its the last ethnic group most people would "threatening" but whatever….not to mention he’s Italian and so am I……I’m sure they could use that for threatening.  it reminds me when I worked at the Blind School and worked with multi-handicaped children.  They made us go to diversity training which we all thought was stupid. We worked with the diverse population , we were the last people that needed this.  Well , we were so , I don’t know relaxed about everything (so what if you call us a wop or the n word and so forth we don’t care)the PEOPLE putting it on were offended. OMG you don’t care if the N- word is used. Its a word,big deal and they started on how the N-word shouldn’t be used.  So one said is any different than calling me a Wop or  this one a Jew , I don’t care  its just a word. We all looked at each other, didn’t we come here to learn tolerance not to be offended by what people say and do and all that.  It was a waste  of time but comical.  THey were flustered. I’m off the subject again. The point is I got that feeling they don’t want to treat him and the are making up excuses. 10 minutes was spent on him "NOT" signing the paperwork.  I told him I would would have him go right now and sign it and take a picture

so there was proof. Oh no that’s not necessary he said after. Honestly I would like them to do their jobs. Anyway I got him an appointment with another psychiatrist Tuesday if Monday they play these games on him.