Gone Greek God Googoogahgah

I think I prefer writing in point form….since my thought process works in a similar way…so here it goes again;
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– Horton Hears a Who came out!!!!!!!!!! I fricken adore adore adore Dr. Seuss….like have a Dr. Seuss room in my house n everything kinda adore!….I believe the man to be a genius! right up there with my all time fave philosopher Socrates 🙂
– I did not get to see it yet…I was suppose to go but my friend cancelled on me and I have had alot of things I need to sort out….so I will see it shortly…and I will buy it for sure!
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– I some times do not understand myself….I rec’d the raise I wanted…(plus more) and for some reason generally I am still not very happy….do not get me wrong I was jumpin up and down thrilled but my attention span I think is fading….I am fighting it but its not going so well…..this could be linked to the over 130hrs of overtime I have put in….so I took monday off….I think I might be burnt out a tad so hopefully a 4 days weekend will help…
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– money is not everything in terms of happiness I know this…but the raise was linked to a major stress in my life…since I have a mortgage and bills…so I figured it would have a larger impact on my "happy scale" *shrugs*
…..was wrong
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– Adonis ate my last blueberry at work….lol I offered it to him….but I didnt think he would take it….*blinks*  😉 …thats what I get for offering ha!
– He also gave me a "way to go" it is a program we have at our comapny….there are cards you can give out for people that go over n above….it was oober sweet..and since I was not having a great day that day….it made it better….when he came over and gave it to me….it was very random……..he thanked me for helping him out all the time 🙂 very sweet
– he knows I am having a very hard with this "us" thing….he is hurt as well….which I dont like 🙁
– he is very good at trying to make things more bareable for me…and I appreciate that so very much
– I on the other hand believe I make things worse for him….my attempts to make things easier for him right now are just keeping my distance….since he doesnt like when I cry…the less I speak with him the less he will know that I cry….
– yes, I cry alot…..I can not help it 🙁
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– I am going to the spa on monday….M can not go and I am **attempting to** no longer see Adonis outside of work… so it will just be me….which I do not mind one bit! I have actually turned my phone off and dedicated this lovely bunny weekend to trying to figure out where I am right now and what my next steps will be
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– When I was speaking with Adonis yesterday I let him know my phone would be off….he said he would call me today…..so this went into a "yes" "no" war….him saying yes I will speak with you morrow me saying no my phone wont be on….  I cant be upset with him…it is annoying…..he is too cute….argh!
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– this might be a good time to mention how ridiculously low my will power with him is….I know I have tried to make sure I dont fall for him….but unfortunately I care an ooberduper amount for him…..not to mention the copious amount of respect and admiration I have for him as a person  *sigh*…..I have been trying to not call but if my phone is on…it might sound silly but I am more likely to call him…and if I could actually hide the phone from myself that would be ideal…I am looking at it right now wondering what he is doing but fighting with myself to keep the phone off and not call
– i feel like I am 12… :  since I didnt do stuff like this when I was younger…does not mean I want to do it now…I was hoping I kinda would just skip over this step….*blinks* not a chance
-I am back to crying myself to sleep since the whole situation has gone from hurting me to kill lil bits …I know I have to stop liking him the way I do…and I set my hopes up again….he did not help although he did not do it on purpose….being sensitive….overly sensitive really really sucks
– I remember the days when I didn’t care…sometimes I wish I could go back to those days….those ‘sometimes’ do not last very long though…I rather the oodles of tears then the cold statue I once was…..a balance would be ideal…hehe
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-happier thoughts for the moment….my bestest friend has posted more pictures!! it is fricken lovely in Australia…and she took pictures of kangaroos for meeeee…yay!!
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-I have 2 more weddings to go to this summer….everyone and their mother is getting married this year….there is something in the water I swear it….thank gawd I drink bottled water
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-going to Pittsburgh in june…..for the weekend…to see a baseball game (which I have never ever done before) and to do some sight seeing and shopping….Soulmate is coming with me…along with J and M ….I am oober excited
– Yes, I kinda wanted Adonis to come with me….it is his birthday weekend and he really likes baseball….like wanted to play pro and everything….I came |-| <– that close to asking….but once again I had to filter….makes me sad
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-the bday party downtown was resch. since the snow storm was insane….it was last weekend instead….I bought this 60’s dress which I fricken adore…its red…its cute…its great! so I wore that….I took the subway and streetcar!!! and I am living to tell about it….ha!  I have a slight germ issue which bothered me more than the possible crazies downtown….but I did not touch much so I was good
-the restaurant was on the smaller side but it was nice….pretty expensive and italian….there were candles n such…I ended up having salmon pasta somethingerrather….it was good.
-there were a bunch of people there….a bunch I had never met before….there was one dood who was pretty cool….interesting, random, and funny….he started flirting with me….which was okay until he came to sit beside me….then I shut down…this is when I realized I have some major thinking to do about Adonis….since he is all I think about and my stomach began to turn when the mere thought that this dood might have some interest in me
def have a problem 🙁
– the dood  called me an "interesting lady" lol….I have alot of quirks and I have "words" and "sayings" that I really do not think to be out of the ordinary until I meet someone new….they are the first ones to pipe in and question me about them….I think my friends are just ‘numb’ to me so it goes it with the flow….heck they pull out the stuff I use…..
– does not help the older I get the more they come out (so it seems)….resulting in some times getting more attention than I would like
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sidenote- another very random Adonisism that made me laugh (to add to the list I started 2 entries back)….
him "can I draw you…naked"
me "um…can you draw?"
<div>him "no"
me "haha….then…sure!" 🙂
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– got a solid chocolate bunny at work on thursday…it was fun!  there was also a bunch of choco eggs n such….
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-I went out for lunch with P on thursday/yesterday…good times….she used to work with me but she hated it and left….so we email each other and get together every once n a while…to catch up….she is doing well…..she is a great woman….and gives me a different way of looking at things…which is always welcomed
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– I messed up my hat!! I brought it into work to get some help….I have to undo a bunch and start again from one of the parts where I decreased….lol so maybe in a year I will have a hat…..I do a bit here and there….but my attention span once again has gotten the best of me….it is not that I do not want to do it though…i just have to want to do it…so when the mood hits me I go knit crazy…then I break
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– I had a very long random conversation with a dood at young drivers….I still have not gotten my G…yes it has been like 5 years….but once again when I decide to do something that is when I will do it….the fact that I can drive n do what I like without having my G does not help…but anyways….he was a younger dood name was Andrew…he talks ALOT lol….but it was okay since I was in a social mood…so know that he went to china and about his 2 jobs etc etc….he let me know about the driving stuff and I set up an appointment for the 29th of March….I do not want to up n spend 75 dollars to attempt to get this G and fail…so I am going to take a lesson or two
– and apparently I might have to back park which I never learned how to do…or parallel park which makes me laugh…since I memorized it for the G2 test I took and then it was quickly bumped outta my memory bank for more important things….to date I have never p.parked and I do not see it happening in the future either….another reason why my butt will never live downtown 🙂
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– Brother was over today…we are going to colour eggs n such….morrow morning YAY!
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Went and had my oil changed in my car….another very nice dood….I got him to do it in 30 mins (since I was on my lunch)…had a car inspection (with a print out), air in my tires and they hand washed my car for 40 bucks.  He did not give me the creeps and did not seem shady….I double checked with my Doda n Adonis to make sure how much an oil change costs and apparently I did good 🙂 
-Adonis asked if I showed him leg….since I was wearing a dress that day…lol….didnt need to show him leg…just smiled 😛
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– hoping for an easter egg hunt as well….I am like four that way… 🙂
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– I did my bootcamp workout this morning…..feeling better since it allowed me to release some frustrations….I will go for a 50 min run around 4….maybe work on my hat or a picture I want to draw for someone at work….
– I have decided that I want to make Adonis 99 orgami gold stars for his bday….since I have tendencies to say "want a gold star?" or "goldstar" he has picked this up so since he is a star he will make the perfect 100. 
….okay when I actually typed that out….it sounds very cheesy….gag me I need to stop the insanity!
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Happy Bunny Weekend all 🙂