Ugly Truths Bring Freedom
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"Ugly Truths Bring Freedom"
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Toxic
his voice bleeds down her face
Ripping into her flesh
Does not use his fist
he poison’s her thoughts:
Belittle demean ridicule.
Criticize
how she move
Criticize
What she says
Criticize
What she wears
Criticize
What she does
Criticize.
Face number two
he loves her
care so deeply
wishes no harm toward her
reality
he causes it
Twisted flesh
Game-filled eyes.
He does not love her
her pain brings him pleasure
He does not love her
Selfish and inconsiderate
He does not love her
lying and cheating (thinking she does not know)
he does not love her.
Fooling herself
She loved him with everything she had
reality
she simply hated herself.
Lost within her own ideals
hanging on to her love for him
believing she loved herself by loving him
she lost herself.
He loved
He loved the love
Loved the attention
Loved the affection
reality – a cliché
Love does not cause pain
He does not love her.
Past tortures allowed present scorn
Beating herself
Corrupted childhood
Turned her insides out
Turned her soul black
Turned her into her own enemy.</
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Filling the pants of her past
he assumed the role
continuing the cycle.
He does not love her
trying to make her weak
taking advantage of her
falling into an abyss
She allowed it
He did it
He does not love her
Part time lover
Full time lesson
Toxic…—
By: Sun © 2005
Sun note- I get overwhelmed from time to time…I am strangly aware of how things work with myself…and it can be battle of catching myself falling into the traps that are set up through daily life….as the days go by I am becoming more aware….more aware of my toxic behaviours…towards myself….and when I sit and think about my surroundings…where I situated currently….or in the past…it is twisted how I can pinpoint certain events to be when I was down…when I fell…in the process of me succumbing to my weakness….people on this planet…are like vultures…they dive in and peck at your flesh…and if you allow it to be exposed they will devour your soul…it is all within your control….and I have allowed myself to be a victim at certain points…which is beyond frustratinig…since I do know better…it is like watching yourself be stupid….I do learn to not do it again…but there are certain things that even if I do know…it is like I have this compelling force that insists that I have to experience it….maybe it has to do with my idealist thoughts of…’maybe people will show me different’….I have realized that I have to stop dealing with topics…and handle the issue….because travelling in parallel circles is very drainning….I am in a good place right now in the general scheme of things….just trying to get to the roots so that I can continue to move forward….I no longer can allow people to take me down…they are toxic towards me…but I allow it…this is far from everyone…actually in particular….I have one person that came into my life during a period of extreme depression…and self loathing….now that I am a different place…we clash in the worst way…I will no longer take his crap….and…he is thrown in a whirl-wind of what the heck happened to me….which…is not really my concern…in the sense that…I am more myself now…and if he can not handle it…or does not like it…well…wow what does that show….it is all just very interesting….deconstructing yourself…hmmm