Hard, Expensive Lesson….Learned-Thanks

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"Hard, Expensive Lesson…..Learned- thanks"

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Shall the Mafia Princess return?

 

Chronic feelings of disappointment, worry, anger, and foolishness

take turns pumping threw her veins

filling her body

playing harsh games with her mental and physical state.

 

The lesson has now been sealed

jumping off the cliff was the only way

for it to be delivered.

 

Taught banking by a wanna-be thug

time to deal with the consequences

loss of money?

charges of fraud?

ignorance was tested

and failed.

 

Tears fell

allowing revenge to float in a blood-bath

taking on the role of God.

 

Do not let her cute face fool you

one phone call

the easy road

the Mafia Princess has the power

A power underestimated by the unknown.

 

The battle is within

her spirituality ripping her eyelids

not here to teach others!

focus and see!

 

Oh the things she learns after the fact

the harsh realities of life and the human species

will her karmic debts get the best of her?

not allowing her to rise

will her pride take control?

 

Staring at the grave

shovel in hand

was she to resurface?

The one put to rest in sight of a new path….—

 

By: Sun ©

Sun note-  *shakes her head*…my life honestly could be a book…and people keep telling me this over and over again….they make their judgment with only pieces of my life in view…could you imgaine their thoughts if they knew everything?…a book would not suffice….I am going through a very interesting period…of testing right now….testing my strength…my new beliefs….my will power….my mental and emotional stability….it is all on the line….I have realized that….I do need to go through certain things….no matter how bad they are….for me to learn….my character…although has trust issues puts alot of faith in people in the same respect….it is apparent that this causes me to not only allow people to dig their own holes but…in my apparent ignorance….they pull me into the hole with them….I have to be more careful….more aware….it is not a point of disregarding all humans as a bunch of slim stuck to the bottom of my shoe….mind you…it is easy to rationalize this….it is not true….I am not bitter so much as saddened…I have had a few days to go through pretty much every emotion you could think of….that in itself has been dramatic for me…but now the time is coming for me to make a huge choice….a choice that does not really seem to have a right or wrong answer to me….my decision can not be made until tuesday….which also causes my thoughts to race….I wish to just be myself….however it is seemingly difficult to let my guard down when you are surrounded by lions that have not eaten for two days….*blinks*….

songs 4 the moment – Sinead O’Connor – feel so different…and no man’s woman….Mariah Carey- Shake it off….Teairra Marie- no daddy…n’..of course K’naan- Voices at the crossroads