it’s always about a guy…

well, my friend leah is at it again…
the thing is, what she says makes sense…i don’t want to believe her though…but if kyle really cares about me, i’d think he’d talk to me about it…i just don’t want to start a whole new she said this and she said that kind of thing…so i think i’m going to just tell him that she has been saying things again, and that i believe him because i love him, and i don’t want to start another anger thing and leave it at that…and see if he wants to pursue this and calm my mind down once again…
she could just be saying things because of jealousy…but i don’t want to be blind with this…i do trust him, i just don’t want to be fooled…it’s happened to my sister too many times, and me as well (except not in a relationship as of yet)…so, i just hope this turns out well…honesty is the best thing…the most admirable characteristic anyone can have…
i suppose it doesn’t really matter what he’s done in the past, but what he’s doing now that counts…and i KNOW that i will not stand for someone who won’t treat me right…ever…so, if he does anything, i will not stand for it…i don’t care if he "loves" me or if i love him…anything like that is wrong…

so i’m eating a brownie with chocolate icing…it’s good 🙂 lol…the brownie is fat free, but the icing isn’t…lol…so at least it’s half alright…but i’m eating the icing plain now because there’s no more brownie…lol…it’s good 🙂 at least i’m through my bullemic stage of my life…although i was never really that bad…it’s still wrong to do it…
still reading a lot for my course…it helps me get rid of my thoughts and distracts me from my insecurities…so i guess it helps…
I haven’t written any new poems for a while now…so that’s strange…but i guess it’s a good sign too, because i usually only write when something is really bothering me…