One Day

I woke this morning feeling bitter and angry, trying to shake off the dreams I had. It was like my own personal nightmare. Girls that I knew in high school, some younger than me, on their second and third pregnancy. Just a dream, although these girls have gotten pregnant in the time we’ve been trying and had their precious bundles already. Ick, I hate that feeling. Anger. I grew up with it around me, it spreads. My mom is a very angry person, very hateful and bitter. I don’t like feeling that way. It was a strage dream, like a was stuck watching these people and silently screaming don’t. I felt fine when I went to sleep, I’m not sure why I had these dreams. It made me feel defeated though, for a instant.

Maybe one day it will happen for us. Maybe one day.

I won’t ask you not to feel that way. Of course you feel frustrated and angry. Anyone would, sis. I wish there was something I could do for you 🙁

RYN: Awww…shucks, lady *blush* I see other people’s stuff and then see all the things I screwed up on, lol.

Quixotic

February 23, 2007

Ugh youre getting the non-pregnancy crazies, too? Be bitter if you need to, it will come off eventually. -snug-

Morrigu

February 25, 2007

RYN – I’ll celebrate when you get there, and I’ll be your shoulder when it’s not fun. it’s been a good pregnancy, but it’s time to be over. 3 days and mom will be here. 3 days to get my house somewhat in order. What bugs me is hearing people say “oh you’re nesting” no – I’ve given up on that, I just don’t want to be embarassed by my mom seeing a house that has fallen into a bad place as Gaelon and I are both so burned out.