What Is Going On In My Head?

What is GOING ON with the dreams. I can’t sleep. They are so random and weird and not making any sense, expect there is always at least one person I know in the dream. This time it was Liegh. We were grocery shopping together somewhere, it kept changing, and her daughter wanted a toy. I told her no and she started crying, so i spanked her and called her a brat. Even though it was a dream I woke up feeling ashamed. I love Leigh’s daughter, she is just so sweet and I would never lay a hand on a child. I can’t even discipline other people’s kids, or even talk sternly to them. Then when I finally fell back alseep I dreamed that they’re were rats in someone’s house, but the house was more like a connected apartment complex. I was trying to convince all the kids there that the rats had to leave, and put them outside. They kept coming back trying to get in, and the kids were upset. Basic theme? What is going on. I rarely remember dreams, but when I do it’s usually once in a blue moon, and completely normal. It’s been three nights in a row, and they’ve all waken me up, only to fall back alseep to another abnormal dream. I can’t get any good sleep. Maybe it’s stress. I don’t know, but I need a nice night of sleep.

My upper lip is super chapped. It’s bugging the crap outta me. I’ve been using Chapstick Medicated lip balm but it doesn’t seem to be helping much.

Sandra went to the doctor’s yesterday, and that was pointless. We wanted her admitted, but she doesn’t want to be and Jess was there and wouldn’t let them. Chris was there but his dad kept arguing with him and getting mad and irrational. I know he wants her to be happy and a commend that but it isn’t what she NEEDS. I’m going to talk with him today and see if I can convince him to let us admit her. If not I told Chris to go over Jess’s head.

With all the despair going on here, Chris and I could use a little joy. Nothing would make us happier than to be pregnant.