Matisyahu

I’m so in love with this guy. It just lifts my spirits. His music, is so inspired. I’m not religious, but his conviction moved my soul. I truly feel I can feel his love for God. That in turn renews my faith. Honestly I don’t think it matters how you worship, just that you do. I can’t get enough of it. I’m posting the lyrics at the end of this post.

Another month is almost over, which means, another visit from my favorite friend "Red". I found out this young 18 year old girl at work, is pregnant with her boyfriends baby. She’s happy, and I’m happy for her, but I did feel jealous. I think I feel more jealous of people who happen to accidently get pregnant, that those trying. I know its an accident, and all life is precious, it’s just me having bitter feelings. I’m allowed, and it doesn’t consume me. I get my jealousness out, and move on.

Not much has been going on lately. Chris and I are trying to throw together that Fourth Party, if I’m not working, which we won’t know until the week before. But they waited for me last year.

King Without A Crown

by

Matisyuha

You’re all that I have and you’re all that I need
Each and every day I pray to get to know you please
I want to be close to you, yes I’m so hungry
You’re like water for my soul when it gets thirsty
Without you there’s no me
You’re the air that I breathe
Sometimes the world is dark and I just can’t see
With these, demons surround all around to bring me down to negativity
But I believe, yes I believe, I said I believe
I’ll stand on my own two feet
Won’t be brought down on one knee
Fight with all of my might and get these demons to flee
Hashem’s rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Hashem’s rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Out of darkness comes light, twilight unto the heights
Crown Heights burnin’ up all through till twilight
Said, thank you to my God, now I finally got it right
And I’ll fight with all of my heart, and all a’ my soul, and all a’ my might

[Chorus:]2x
What’s this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
Givin’ myself to you from the essence of my being
Sing to my God all these songs of love and healing
Want Moshiach now so it’s time we start revealing

Strip away the layers and reveal your soul
Got to give yourself up and then you become whole
You’re a slave to yourself and you don’t even know
You want to live the fast life but your brain moves slow
If you’re trying to stay high then you’re bound to stay low
You want G-d but you can’t deflate your ego
If you’re already there then there’s nowhere to go
If you’re cup’s already full then its bound to overflow
If you’re drowning in the water’s and you can’t stay afloat
Ask Hashem for mercy and he’ll throw you a rope
You’re looking for help from G-d you say he couldn’t be found
Searching up to the sky and looking beneath the ground
Like a King without his Crown
Yes, you keep fallin’ down
You really want to live but can’t get rid of your frown
Tried to reach unto the heights and wound bound down on the ground
Given up your pride and the you heard a sound
Out of night comes day and out of day comes light
Nullified to the One like sunlight in a ray,
Makin’ room for his love and a fire gone blaze

[Chorus]
[Chorus:]
What’s this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
Givin’ myself to you from the essence of my being
Sing to my God all these songs of love and healing
Want Moshiach now so it’s time we start revealing