Once I’m free

I’m blocking the toxic and annoying folks in my life. I will write a better entry later, just stopping by. I should be doing homework but I’ll save that task for tomorrow lol. I’ve had to work the last few days including today. Wasn’t feeling any more “work” today. Anyway what I mean by my blocking is, making it so s and any other folks in my life can’t reach me. It’s a process but it’s the only way I can attempt get over this.

Now things are actually good right now, but he’s hit and miss most days. And he talks about the move off and on. Well I’m not gonna stay, cause I’m just not happy. He seems clueless or perhaps doesn’t care so long as he gets what he wants. I can let the past go, but the affects still linger. That’s what he’s not getting. He is so arrogant that he probably doesn’t think he’s the reason I’m leaving. He is a big part, aside from the fact that life in general has been a struggle for me. I don’t even look for work anymore. At least not for here. I gave up a long time ago.

Since we are both off tomorrow, I plan to finalize the trip details. I am gonna put in a two week notice a week from Sunday. He sure as hell needs to be sure he gets that time off from work and whether he plans to bring his son (it would be yo help him drive) but he’s an expense we’d have to factor in. I’d hope to ride solo cause I do not like his son, but at the same time S wouldn’t have to drive back alone.

I was supposed to be saving.  It’s hard living here and saving. So it wasn’t the best choice to wait until the end of my semester. I’ve already dug into savings, which I’m starting to pay back. He just drains money, and energy from me. Calling me sexy, and all that sounds nice. Thing is, he’ll act like this loving  boyfriend and then having questionable friends that text him. So yeah I’ll just be glad when I’m gone. I can’t deal with much anymore.