…caught a lightweight lightning seed..

19:27 left on the clock, until my lasagna is done

antsy this morning..tuesdays are always like that..had to put on my white fishnet bodystocking just to get off..not sure if a mirror counts as company..most likely not..

drinking again..rereading old bbm conversations with d of course..and i dont want to visit it..but i keep thinking that i will find hints that i’ve missed while i was living it..stupid, yeah..not theraputic either

cooking is kind of a remedy..i like how it keeps my hands busy..grated an entire brick of mozzarella cheese, right arm diesel i’m certain

going stir crazy..and my mother is not helping..the vast majority of her teeth are being extracted..yes that is depressing but it doesnt mean that she has to give up on life either

ari texted me when she got out of school and i couldnt run out of this suffocating apartment fast enough..

blackberry buzzes every 25 seconds and i peek just to make sure the building is not falling down

tomorrow is going to be worse i’m sure…maybe i should start jogging over the bridge..or kickboxing.

t-minus 8:11…time to set the table..tick tick tick..