..hug suffering..caress every ache..

im hearing the same advice from various sources..and i wholeheartedly agree with them..

ignorning him is the only course of action worth taking

i’ll play dead…

http://www.youtube.com/watch

sent him an email last night..so unfotunately there will be a response at some point…most likely in the wee hours of saturday morning…knowing him..

it was a few links from amazon…lingerie..asking which was his fave..so that i can create my own version by hand..have some material that id love to play with…he inspires me to do these sorts of things..

last week’s visit, he strategically ripped up two of my bodystockings during the umm.. intense moments..

it was a huge turn on for both parties..so im not complaining..

 

he will be missed..theres a lot of history between us..but i must move on..emotionally its taking its toll on me..

it sounds like such an easy concept..this friends with benefits thing..but it never is..

i wasnt built for this

 

one question keeps repeating itself in my head…

if he were to become single again..would he immediately want to pick up where we left off?

i already know that the answer is no..

he’d want to be free..so that he can constantly seek the dumbed-down version of me

manipulate.. like silly putty…one two three..easy..

someone who will be dazzled by the bullshit he spoon feeds

 

migraine has been slowly making its presence known…the light is killing me..time to shut it off..