..lullabies..to paralyze..

http://www.youtube.com/watch

im sick..wah..

spent new year’s eve working…from 10pm until 11am..besides watching random drunk people being carried or just plain laying out on the street..nothing crazy happened..the best part was when this good lucking guy asked me if i had condoms..he had picked up some chick who probably fell asleep waiting for him..i hope she left..jerk was too cheap to buy some..

some dude asked me to marry him…i said i was allergic

so lets get right to d…

no..our visit didnt happen..

his plans fell through..cant say i didnt see that coming..

and yet…to be totally honest..i was afraid to see him this time around

usually..we have limited time..and we get straight to business..no guesswork there..right?

this one would have been different…and im not sure i would have been able to handle it..

too much of a good thing…the after…an emotional trainwreck..

i dont make sense..but its for the best..im sure he was left scratching his head as to why i didnt blow up at him..he was expecting it..perhaps he thinks that i no longer care about him..

have almost the entire week off..i need to rest..and think…