At work

Another day crawls slowly on in the Toddler Room at Panda #3, as I sit here and ponder about all the children I will miss.  And the ones I won’t.  LOL.  Most of all, I believe I will miss Jaxon and Nolan.  Then there’s Olivia, Sam, Lux, Violet, Riley, Nicholas, Noah, Macy, Elijah, Braydon, Talia, Talya, Aarti, Dannick, Lucas, Max, Carter, Riya, Julien, Isaac, and Joseph, and Sabrina.  That’s not even all of them.  Jaxon’s mom and Sam’s mom are the only ones who know I’m leaving right now though, and they both said it was a huge loss to lose me.  I cried so much last night just thinking about them all.  And to Jaxons mom this morning when I told her, and I almost cried when I told Sam’s mom, but I turned away just in time for her not to see my eyes start to well with the pain of lying to her.  I’m not leaving to go to school.   I’m leaving because I can’t stand how it makes me feel to come to work everyday knowing that there will be atleast 2 children who will get hurt under her hands and there’s not a damn thing I can do to stop it.  Nothing I’ve tried works, and I hate to say that I have given up.  Not on the children, but on her.  I always tell the children to start saying things like, "No I don’t like that Linda."  and it’s working right now but god, am I ever going to miss those little guys.  I’m sitting here shaking as I think that I will most likely never see these children again.  With the exception of maybe Jaxon, which is super important to me.  I would move heaven and earth to be with that child and that family.

I must return now.

Ciao.