how I feel right now.

I know i’ve probably posted this before, but i was reading though old entries in an older diary and came across this.  This is how im feeling right now.  Just thinking about everything and where im going.

"I believe everyone makes mistakes.
I believe everyone thinks twice before speaking their mind.
I believe in a God..I just don’t know who that God is yet.
I believe everything happens for a reason.
I believe in hate. I hate. You hate. Everyone hates. Should we? No. Do we? Yes.
I believe in sin.
I believe everything we do is different from what people did thousands of years ago.
Was their preception of sin different than ours? Yes. Do we still sin? Maybe. Did that make sense? Hopefully.
I believe dogs are the cuddliest animals there are.
I believe dolphins are the smartest.
I believe love is a word used by millions of people. Only 10 precent of those have experienced it.
I believe in kissing. I like kissing.
I believe holding a hand brings smiles. Do you smile? I do.
I belive in depression.
Sometimes I like the dark. Sometimes I need a night light. I believe in the boogie monster under my bed.
I believe in fear. What’s your biggest fear? Mine’s being alone and never experiencing love.
I believe I’m here for a reason. What’s yours? If I knew I’d tell you.
I believe people cheat. What do I think about it? I think they should wear signs that say "scum". yea. that’s what I think.
I believe in song. Do I sing? Yes. Can I sing? Depends on my critic.
I believe in frustration. I believe people fight to hurt themselves. Have you ever been in a fight? I have.
I believe in piercings. I believe in tattoos. They’re pieces of you that blossom on your body.
I believe in smurfs. Hopefully I’ll meet one someday.
I believe ice-cream helps you feel better.
I believe in soul mates. Do I have a soulmate? Yes. Have I met him? No.
I believe in envy.
I believe in immaturity.
I believe i am a fighter.
I believe in strength. I’m talking inner strength.
I believe people try too hard. Girls try even harder. For what? Getting treated unfairly by boys. Yes I said BOYS. Not men.
I believe boys don’t become men until they reach their early thirties. Girls hit it at 21.
I believe in butterflies. I like butterflies.
I believe in adreanaline rushes. I like adreanalin rushes.
I belive magazines "models" put down modern women. 0.3 percent of women actually look like that.
I believe in being shallow. I know people who are shallow. Sometimes I’m shallow. <br style="font-family: century gothic; color: rgb(255, 255, 255);” />I don’t believe guns kill people. People kill people.
I believe in music. I am music.
I don’t believe we all die just to go to hell.
I don’t believe we shouldn’t look at the opposite sex and shame ourselves becuase we fear God. I’m not afraid of God.
I’m not afraid to die. Are you? Don’t be.
I don’t believe we die then lead an eternity in Heaven.
I believe when we die it’s just an extra-long nap. I like to nap.
I like movie theaters.
I like my friends.
I believe in crushes.
I have a crush.
I believe pictures are the best form of memory out there. Sometimes I’d rather have a picture than a poem.
I like poetry. Do I write poems? Yes. Am I good at it? I think so. Should we worry what others think? No. Do we? Yes.
I believe that I am a rebel without a cause.
I like who I am. But I hate who I am.
I believe in opinion.
You just read mine."