Rapid Recovery

So I’m feeling quite a bit better today. I got my payslip from work and its for a hell of a lot more than I was expecting. Thats helped me feel a lot more secure about where I am, I can just about scrape by now, even if I am still very tight for money. Also, I finally got some words down on paper for my research proposal, which is also a weight lifted from my mind. Its rubbish, but its a first draft, and I now have something to work on for the next week. My supervisor has agreed to look over it and discuss it with me before I hand it in, so it can only get better. I also had it out with my flatmate about her need to compete with me all the time, and be negative about me when I happen to do something better than her (ive been getting very good grades recently). I dont think we resolved anything at all, but at least its out in the open now.

This is going to sound really stupid, but now Im worried about my mental health. How can I go so low for such a time then come back up so sharply? Do I have an emotional problem? I can’t keep turning to cutting when Im in the pits of despair, only to get some good news, and come rocketing back to relative normality in the space of a few days. Im worried about worrying. I think I need help. I suppose I’ve also been at Scafways a lot over the weekend so it helps that my mind was taken off everything for a while whilst I gave people the wrong change. Oh well. Lets just see what happens from now on.