Blog #97

Breaks over now and I’m glad of that. Tomorrow I go back to school and this restlessness will mostly be taken care of. Hooray. It kinda bothers me to think that I used to really like breaks like this and now I don’t so much.

Got into a tiff with Laura too. Women confuse me sometimes. She tells me she really likes me, then she doesn’t show me any trust whatsoever other than the fact that she tells me she’s been cheated on in the past. No trust whatsoever and honestly, I don’t really care to gain any anymore. Don’t like being bitten with her basically saying ‘I don’t trust you with anything’ when I’m trying to be a good friend. Too money-orientated, too, she be. I dunno how far friends like that can go, you know? I should really choose my friends more wisely, I think, rather than just being friends with anyone. Bad friends can really bring you down. Especially ones who are pretty decent people otherwise. People like Laura really remind me of how good I had it when I was dating Jacinta. -_-

Bill owes me quite a bit of money still and I’m way less mad at him now that I’ve talked with him. I was getting pretty disgruntled about that because it’s gonna mean I can’t pay the bills but, as I thought it might be, it was something I was fostering without any real reason to. I hadn’t actually TOLD him about it and so it’s unfair to be upset with him about it. I talked with him and everything’s pretty much cool again. Knowing when your feelings aren’t justified is a good thing, heh. I probably avoided a fight here by just talking to him instead of being upset with him.

I’ve been having weird dreams lately.

I felt strange things last night before I slept, too.