Blog #30

Once again I have no real time to get ready, haha. I went to bed a 8, woke up at 8, so I have a helluva lot of sleep under my belt and for once, i’m NOT tired. That isn’t so surprising though, I guess, haha. I took a bath, shaved and now I’m eating my breakfast….so when I’m done I’m out that door. Way to go me. I’ve decided on buying a sound program; I think it’s time I start doing stuff on my own. Start experimenting so I know what they’re talking about, so I understand better, and so I start getting some of my own questions so I figure it out. That’s the way to go, i think. Arghh, I’m gonna have to skate like no tomorrow to get there on time. Oh yeah, I still have george’s board. I just kinda sorta stole it for an extended period of time. Yeah, he knows I have it. But I still have it, haha.

I’ve been noticing more and more lately that it’s getting easier to push the things that matter to me to the back of my mind as well as pushing the negative parts of who I am to the back of my mind. Perhaps it’s a side-effect of being so busy all the time. So I think that, perhaps, I understand why blake did the same thing to me so often. Because it’s easier and far more pleasant to just coast along like that without really latching on to anything tightly. Hrm. I dunno how I feel about it yet though. I think on many levels I still disagree strongly with it. It’s a valid and worthy way of being, and it’s not my place to choose what others do, but I still think it’s somewhat weak and far too accepting of being ‘the norm.’ How can you ever do anything that’s special if you never bring yourself out of normal circumstances? All the people who create the greatest things, who do the greatest things push for those things all the time and never stop no matter IF the other way is easier, more pleasant and nice. Greater rewards and achievements never come cheap. Hrm. No more time, but I hope I remember to ramble more on this one later. See you.