Blog #1

Today went well. Went to class, talked some more with the guys around me. Doing pretty well with two of them. We chatted about music and whatnot….the asian guy listens to pretty much exclusively eastern music, not just like jpop, but all all sorts. He’s gonna hook me up with some tunes and I’m gonna hook him up with some of my spanish and hebrew stuff. The other guy doesn’t know much about music except about house and popular electronica….so i’m gonna give him a crash course on various styles, starting with punk and leading into goth. Seems fun and worthwhile….two of my first friends here at full sail.

Speaking of that, the school I go to is fullsail and i’m in the recording arts program. That is, I’m learning how to be a recording engineer so I can go out and record and hopefully produce amazing albums with artists. Tis like a dream job. That being said, back to blogging.

We presented presentations in class today. One of the guys tried to play a song but he was so nervous he kept messing up and he was freaking out slightly, you could tell. I told him he was doing fine and that he should keep trying, he was doing alright, but he kept quit anyway. Later on when the teacher asked what we liked best about em, i tried to give him more props by saying “The fact that some people had the balls to actually stand up there and do that.” He was probably feeling kinda shitty. Poor guy.

We also got set up in our groups today. We have to do a presentation on some of the material explained in behavioral science. We have 4 photoshoppers, couple musicians, others with cameras (photo and film). We have a lot of talent there….i’m getting to know em all, I’m going to do my best to get to know them all and make more friends; network some. Also the guy who messed up during presentations was there. He thanked me for cheering for him. Felt good. I’m not usually like that. Tis a good change I’m trying to make.

I had lab today too. (from 9 til 1 a fugging m) In effect, though, for right now, we just watched videos and learned about various producers and engineers for the music business and what they did. It was killer though, you totally didn’t want to be there at all. The guy sitting next to me summed it up best. “Man, I really really don’t want to be here right now. Those films just make me want to go into a studio and start learning as much as I can about that right now.” He’s totally right too. Yeah, the films were cool and interesting and I liked em a lot, but god damn they made me want to just start doing it. It was very evil.

During the breaks of one of the labs I took a camera interview as well talking about movie monsters. It was cool to be filmed. I think I’m going to try to get to know the movie people more…maybe act some. That’d be cool. I’d like to have a film with me in it, I really would. I’m going to audition I think.

I thought of Jacinta too. Heh, I always seem to. It’s alright. She’s my inspiration in many many ways. Loves strange like that. It’s funny that, even apart under kinda poor circumstances she makes me feel so loved and so capable that I can do a lot of the things i’m trying to change with myself and that I can get out on top of this full sail thing and really be something amazing. Perhaps it’s even better we’re not talking anymore…it gives me the opportunity to totally and completely focus on my classes rather than on the others around me. She’s the only one who really truly matters to me now (outside of some ‘family’ members like amy right now), seeing as a lot of my other friends just kinda up and left. Now I can focus on full sail and my networking and friends there…we’re going to be like family. We’re all there for the same reason, striving for the same thing. It’s a powerful feeling, to be sure. Like I belong there in some ways. On some levels I want to thank her for needing the space because I think it’s going to help me a lot to focus on these things right now, things I need to focus on as well. They’re my future. It’s not the time where i can be logically worrying about her all the time. Gotta Focus. Gotta sharpen my blade on that whetstone now that I’m formed into a blade somewhat. I’m so dull right now, gotta sharpen, gotta refine. It’ll take a long time and will be an ongoing process, but I feel I can do it. Just need to keep moving.