Can’t Be Without!

So if you have read my previous entries and saw my picture you can see that I have been with a guy for almost 3 months now! Well just in the past week he stopped calling me. I tried calling him but he won’t call back. And tonight I went to Rock the Universe at Universal Studios and saw a girl that I know that goes to school with him. She told me that Austin is thinking about breaking up with me. And I immediately started crying. I love him with all my heart and losing him would KILL me! I don’t know what I’d do without him. It breaks my heart thinking that I’d even have to go another day knowing that I can’t have him anymore. I’m even crying now. It sucks so bad and hurts even worse. I love him so much that I can’t even begin to describe it. I can’t lose him, I just can’t!! But there is nothing that I can do. I can’t make him DO anything. And that’s the thing that worries me. Cause I want and need to talk to him but I can’t do that if he won’t call me. I’m beyond broken hearted right now and I feel like somebody just destroyed whatever I had of my heart left. I don’t know what do! I just have to sit by and watch the greatest thing that has ever happened to me walk away with no explination and that thought makes me want to curl up in a ball and never leave my room! I love him so much. I thought he was THE ONE! But the way things are going right now, it’s not looking that way. I don’t want to live a day that I have to be without him and not be able to call him mine.

So if you would. Please keep me in your prayers. Pray that he AND I figure out what is really going on and why!

Thanks for reading…

Sorry I’m whining!