friday december 16th 2011

this was written in paper too

until now I didn’t start the concentration’s exercices,I’m trying to be positive and so far I am having fun because I learn to enjoy,be gratful for the things i have,even that I missed two days of prayer.yesterday in the maths class they called me to the absence office so I freaked out like I always do,my hands and my legs start chaking until they telled me that the prices I should get for been the third in my class in my first year of high school just arrived.I felt proud I came back to class and the maths teacher asked me if I have a problem so i telled him the whole story.I wasn’t like Oh! I can’t believe he asked me and cared about me I mean I know him his real him,so I teached my self not to care about his opinion because he made me go through hell last year and I’m not ready to let go that.

the thing that really made me happy is the look in my friends faces,you could see the jalousy and how they though that it was unfair because they were like the second and the third last year and I suppose there prices didn’t arrived yet.I was like happy to see them like that because it’s usually me who always have that feeling of unjustice.I want them to try that too and what did killed them is the smile on my face all day.weel THEY CAN SUCK IT!

this event is the reason I start praying so I promissed GOD that I wouldn’t miss a prayer because I know this is the only way I can do it

the other great great happy surprising news of this week is the absence of the physic teacher for a whole week .not seeing him is the paradise it self,every time I remember that it made my day and i just jump from anger sad situations to smily exciting happy ones.if only we don’t study physics at all my life will be much better,much easier.how?let me start with:

no more stress and anexity of wednesday and thursday

no more extra hours on physics which mean saving more money and having more time

not feeling dumb and stupid and stop comparing my self with every one

the ability of burning every book and tewt book related to that stupid subject

saying godbye to the physics teacher.to his craps,to his equations,to his logique that makes no sence ,and espicially saying godbye to his pop quiz and humiliations threats.

it feels good just to imagine how life and the world is gonna be if that happend