cruches

 my first self destruction  cruch is rob low from "brothers and sisters"whene he had a heart attack I felt sad and mad because he was acting like an asshole but I couldn’t hate him that much and whene he died in season 4 I stayed for a week crying day and night crying while cleaning the house,cleaning the dishes or watching TV.

my second cruch is carmine giovinazzo from CSI NY.he is hot isn’t?he brooke my heart whene he cheat on lindsay of course I didn’t cear about her but I really felt bad because it was like cheating on me.he broke my heart again when I found out that he is married to this vanessa and have a child and she’s older than him.it’s not like I have somehing against  been married to younger men actually I think women should have fun too isn’t? but this is carmine giovinnazo I like him and to show  you how much I like him I made a list of my goals and sleeping with him was one of those goals.

my third cruch and this is the worse and I mentiond a lot novak djokovic a tennis player.it started with just liking him you know a girl likes a hot man,so typicall and end up by wanting and determine to marry him.the first time I cryed because of novak and I’m not proud of the part of crying for a men was whene I discover who his real girlfriend(she was so biautiful and there is no way to compare between me and her).the second time I cryed is whene I discoverd that she’s not his girlfriend,she is his fiancee imagine the shock I was happy watching TV with a smile in my face and I ended up crying.

the third was whene I cheked his site and they mentiond that he will married his fiancee jelena this october which is mean last month.I steal remember how I cryed,the last time I cryed like that it was whene my grandma died.

the fourth this time I didn’t cry at least not yet whene I watched this match this week but I didn’t see any wedding ring which it was great until I checked online that an injury in his bag was the only reason that marriage didn’t happend in the start I jumped from happiness and I felt that was a sign for me that I shouldn’t give up I mean it’s like a miracle until I complete reading and I discovered  that they will marreid before this year ends and I woke up this morning and decide not care about him any more and I promissed my self that I’m not gonna watch any of his games this week.

the commun betwwen all my cruches beside the tears and the fact that they are famous and hard to reach if I don’t want to say impossible that they made me  hate the cities where they were for example I hate now California because"brothers and sisters"get shooted in CAl and now I hate NY(CSI NY)and I hate serbia because novak is serbian and I don’t wan’t hate places because of men.

my cruches now is Craig oleijnic from the listener and matthew bomer from white collar I know I can’t believe I’m still doing it.