get up

 I decied this time not to complain, and talk about my problems which are lot but I’m giong to do something tottaly different.I’m gonna do a mirror talk even that I’m not gonna talk in front of a mirror right now,this whole mirror talking is something I do whene I feel weak,but this TIME I will do it here,I would love to chear this with you.

I feel bad it’s true I’m not doing anything and I feel little bad about sitting in front of computer but what’s the point from doing anything whatever it was if you’re not going to have fun.whatever that thing is.even if it was a waste of time it could be fun.isn’t?

so.no more regrets everything I do I should take the responsability for diong it and I don’t have the right to blame any one except my self and if I know the facts which I do I have no reason to repeat the same mistakes.I don’t have the right to blame my laziness or my lake of will power because I am a human being with a brain.I have control on my self not the opposite.my desires,my laziness,my flaws are not the boss I am the boss and all what it takes is get my ass from this chear and stand,breath,smile and be gratful because my sadness,me giving up deosn’t make sence and everything deosn’t make sence isn’t allowed to be true or an excuse.I can make excuces for ever and I will garinty for sure that I will not get any where.If my life is really that horrible than there are others are living in worse circmstances than me but they don’t complain about it instead they thank GOD and they make me feel like a silly girl who’s wasting her time doing nothing except complaining.

no more complainig,yes I can express my feeelings but I can’t be like this any more I have to let this active productive smily happy girl inside of me getting out and I will right now right here.whatever I decided to be I am doing it now feeling it and most of all beleive it right now.

I got go eat or they  gonna finish the whole cake.

THANKYOU FOR THE PERSONES WHO ANSWERD ME ON MY PRECEDENT ENTERY

THANK YOU FOR [scintillescence] FOR THE INSPIRING ENTERIES.