Crumbling Wall

Okay, so I think I’m on the verge of some kind of break down. I want to cry and I want to lash out. I’m irritable and stressed. Nothing seems to be going right for me this last week.

I hate my shift at work. I have to deal with more asses than normal. I’m feeling lonely and out of  touch with society.

I think work is my biggest downer right now. My holiday’s can’t arrive fast enough.

I’m called upon at work to fix things. I fix one problem, then 3 other arise. I’m tired of cleaning up other people’s messes. Then the moment I screw up slightly I’m treated like dirt.  I’m just sick of everything.

I could be doing so much better in life. The only thing I have going for me is Colin.

Ever feel like you’re in second place in life? I always find myself comparing whatI have in life to those around me. I think it’s breeding ill feelings and animosity towards those I call friends.

I do my best in life and I think that nobody sees that. I just want to cry. I’m tired of being the strong and stable wall for everyone. I feel like I can’t hold up anymore.

Blessed Be