Okay a long entry…..finally

So i decided to finally write an entry that broke down everything that has been happening.  Each part of my life will be bold and italicized.  So here goes:

BRAYLON: As the ticker says above my little man is 8 months old TODAY.  He is crawling and pulling up on things.  He will walk when you hold his hands.  He has 4 teeth and 2 more are pushing through.  He is just now getting over the pink eye, which he caught at daycare….another story.  He is my little pride and joy!  I love him to pieces and so much more. 

BRANDIAN:  We have decided to stay together and work things out.  Marriage and moving in is a heavy subject right now.  He wants to go to the JOP and I want a traditional….well not so traditional, wedding.  He wants a two bedroom home and I say that right now we can settle for a one bedroom apartment because Braylon co-sleeps.  He was released from jail a little over 2 months ago and everything is fine now.  He is on probation in two counties.  While he was in jail, he boss, Darren, got hooked on cocaine really bad.  He only paid Brandian $100 last week for a 40 hour workweek, then he called back and was like I need $400 or else I am loosing the truck.  He, Darren, called me all weekend and finally I had to cuss him out because he was waking up Braylon everytime he called.  So B quit and now Darren calls me saying that he wants to be our friends and that he hopes a friendship isn’t lost over $400. 

ME:  I am just me.  Back on blood pressure medicine at the age of 21, with my doctor telling me I may not live to see my child turn 5 if I do not lose 25 lbs. I had toxemia when I was pregnant, which is why he was 5 weeks early.  My kidneys have not fully recovered so………Here I am, someone never satisfied with her physical appereance….forced into a weight loss crisis.  My problem, when it comes to weight loss, is that I can not stay motivated.  OH WELL!!  I HAVE TO DO IT!!!  Work is work, don’t like it, I’m underpaid, etc.  I have come to the realization that my life is fairly unglamorous.  How is it decided that such-and-such is going to be wealthy beyond imagination, and everyone else needs to work 500% harder to just get by?  I don’t get it!  I was at home all last week with my sick child and "Fabulous Life of the Mega Rich" came on vH1.  This man had 4 million dollars worth of cars…..WTF!!  I don’t even want to get into it.

Let me go….here comes my boss!