It is about YOU! Yes YOU!

I’m not gonna start with the small talk.
I’m starting this book today 3rd of October 2007. When it’s finished you will know more about me then anybody and yet more about yourself then possibly anybody around you.

I’m sorry for what I have writen in my diary for the last 2 years and a half. I will explain why latter on.
I will keep my entries so that you can get the most of what I had experienced this last 2 years. It’s a bit ambiguous but you will understand what I mean in time.
As you read you will discover the undoubtable truths and parts of one’s personality.

This book will be free for distribution and of copyrights and will be constantly updated and corrected but I don’t encourage changes made by other people or using the techniques for bad purposes. I will remain anonymous, yet I will accept your opinions, comments and personal messages and would be more then happy to respond.

The reason I’m writing is simple. I want to help others with my experience.

Let’s start.

INTRODUCTION

I was born in the year 1986. By the time I’m writing this I’m 20 years old. What I’ve seen in my life is by chance 99.999% unique. It all started with the separation of my parents when I was 12. It wasn’t a pleasant experience for me. My parents, like most people, are self-conservative in their beliefs.

2 years after I fell in love with a girl in my class. At this young age I was hit by a feeling I did not know of. We were friends for about a year. She wanted to drive me out of my guts and into my jealousy, flirting with everybody and knowing that I would feel horrible so she will feel wanted and desired. We didn’t have a platonic relationship though. I felt like the world around me was crazy and that I was the only one with a sense of what is happening, unaware what I’m going to face 5 years later.

I was a narrow-minded kid. I didn’t want to learn anything. I thought that everything was useless and that only my opinion and theories count. Much like my parents are. Despite that I had learned that my mind can answer questions as if automatically so I asked myself lots of questions and acquired the answers. I felt brilliant and unique. Isn’t that what all kids feel? The answer is "Yes". I was later to find out that’s probably one of humanity’s greatest weaknesses. That enlightening, as I call it now, shaked my life.

TO BE CONTINUED…