night in the blue city

fear as freezing as the cold wind. fear of what? i have lost already! have you ever felt it? i´m so sad. deep in my mind there isn´t hope and even if i try to suppress the feeling it jumps back at me. time goes by. i can´t forget. will i ever? will i ever forgive myself, relieve myself? the city is in blue as it is the sky and the sea. always and every day asking myself the same questions. to some i already gave the answers but still there´s no satisfaction. weakneses darken up the city lights, the friends that i have. it is night and i´m waiting for the sun to come up and relief the pain. in the dynamic day it will drown. it will die and this time again it will be just for a while. burn me already oh great fire of fires!! i want to turn to ashes and let the wind spread me away!