Back again

I havn’t got the chance to write here for a long time. Alot of things have changed since the last 159 days 7 hrs. 10 mins. I’ve changed alot. I’ve never seen me change so fast. It seems I’ve grown up alot. Good things do happen but I still feel sad sometimes. I still don’t have a person to share moments with. I feel shaken up a bit by that. I feel alone. I see alot of people underestimating me including myself and only I’m the one to blame. I don’t know how to fix that. I’m trying to be good to everyone. In fact that’s the most important thing in my life. I sometimes get back the opposite. These people are so not themselves. I thought once of it and I’ve realised something. A truth few people know. Be aware of it! People have a small amount of choices to make in life. We think on the base point of what we see and we see little of the world and the truth. That’s why we’re so different. Don’t think you’re more then anyone else because you’re nobody. I’m broken and it hurts from inside. I’ve lost a person in my life. The most beautiful one. I’ve lost a part of myself. When I think of it I doubt I ever had that part and I never did. It was all a lie. I want to live in the dreams. My expectations are crashed. It was a long time ago but I still feal that way. The thought passed that everything ends but it seemed so far away then. I underestimated love. People are so comfused and so am I. Maybe it’s because I don’t look only for confusion in myself but in others also. That’s what I had to say to you. I hope we all heal the emptyness and find the balance in our lives. I still have alot of work to do in this world and I wish I don’t have to do this alone.