can it just be nice

Another dreary day.  Oh when I woke up the sun was out, but now the clouds have filtered back in and the cold front has come thru.  Blah it has been like this since Tuesday!

Yesterday I made the trek to Wally World.  Bought stuff for the camper.  Things to stay in there instead of hauling back and forth from the house.  Shampoo, soap, toothpaste, towels etc…..    I think I have it pretty well stocked.  We are hauling it to our friends place tomorrow. Then leaving it there until next weekend.

J made it home from work early yesterday due to the rain.  Early was 5pm   He told me a friend from down the street was coming over to check the camper out.  I stayed outside for a little while until they started talking work.  I came in and got on the computer, reading the local papers and browsing the web.   An hour or so later I came back out and drank a few beers with them. By then the sun was starting to go down, and it was getting chilly.   I said I am going in and starting supper.   The hubby said I will be in after I finish this beer.  About an hour later he came in.

I had dinner all ready.  We ate, then he went to take a shower.  While in the shower he is yelling my name.   What?   I just got a blast of hot water, what did you do?      Nothing, the washing might still be going.      He got out of the shower and proceeded to throw a huge fit.  How could I run the washing machine while he was in the shower.   What did you do all day that you are doing laundry now?

Sorry, you were outside yakking and I noticed I could get a load of cold cloths going, was my thought.

He went on and on.   I was already in bed, so I rolled over with my back facing him, just letting him vent.   Geesh!!!   Then he gets into bed, whats wrong with you, why don’t you love me anymore, why won’t you hug me.  Why do you want to fight?

I am thinking shut up and go to sleep.

He has been on this kick lately.  Everytime i say something about facebook he gets all mad, saying I am trying to reconnect with old boyfriends.  Like I had so many.  My only really boyfriend was my ex, whom I started dating at 15.     I hate when he starts this non-trusting shit.  He is the one who caused this, not me.    It is just so agrivating!

While he was talking to his friend last night, he made the comment that the nephew is geting laid off today.  I said oh no!   His friend laughed and said maybe he can live in the camper.  I said maybe I will move to the camper.

Gosh I just can’t take him coming back here to live!    I tried to ask the hubby today if the kid is laid off for the rest of the summer or what. All I get is I dont know Liz, I will have to talk to my boss.   Then he says he will tell him if he comes back here it will not be like last time, sitting around all day.  He will have to get up and be gone, finding something to do.

That doesn’t matter if he is gone all day, he will still be back here at night.   I just can’t handle it!!!

Things are strained between the hubby and I as of now, I don’t know what will happen if he moves back here.

I need to run the vacume, and put a few more last things in the camper.  Hopefully the rest of the weekend will be peaceful!