Defeated

I have given up.  I can’t continue this cycle of highs and lows all because i have an inapropriate crush.  I feel it has come to a point where it is causing more pain than pleasure.

Yet how do i stop indulging?

I need to find a new vice … I would take up smoking except cigarette smoke makes me ill.

In other news it was my nieces 2nd birthday yesterday, she looked so so so cute.  I had so much fun watching her open her presents, play with her cousins and then eat pizza for dinner.  I can’t believe how much she has grown up in 2 years.