5/15/07

holy crap it has been over 3 months since i wrote anything in here ….

how did that happen?? i log on every day and read everyones entries, but for over 3 months i have not written an entry myself.  Im not really sure why i havent.  Somewhere .. somehow … writing became a chore, so i stopped … writing used to be a passion, and now?  i choke.  even just on a simple update.

think thats how i let it get 3 months, i got sick of trying. so i stopped trying.

so whats new … im sick, i have this horrible cough, cold crap thing hanging around for over 3 weeks coz im so run down and stressed from work … i hate my job, after months of working with someone who is a bully and intimidates myself and my manager, and also abusses us and yells at us.  (seriously horrible .. but its one of those things that your feel you have to put up with .. and why? i mean, id never let anyone else put up with such treatment, but because its me, i let it happen … odd) anyway, to keep it short, went to hr, formally warnings happend .. not with me, but yeah, blah blah blah, nothings changed.  like seriously, nothings changed, so i just smile, play nice, and im applying for new jobs.  One where its closer to home instead of an hour away, one that pays more money, and one where there are hopefully people working there that are around my age.  My ideal job would be to earn what im earning now and only working 4 days a week, that way i can look after kaitlyn one day a week.

speaking of kaitlyn, she is now ten months old and she is just so so beautiful.  she can light up my life on the most grey of days.  plus she recognises me now, she smiles and giggles and gets all excited.  she is just so so beautiful. 

other than that … im still single, im still broke .. but, i think im happy.  well apart from work, im happy.

this weekend i will be going to see one of my fav bands play, my best friend and i are having a girly night and booked a hotel near the venue to crash in so we dont have to drive home, then the next morning we get up and fly to tasie for a few days and we get to see the band play again on the sunday night.  Im so looking forward to it. 

i so need the break!

i think thats about it really … im boring ..  hopefully it wont be another 3 months before i write again