Troubles with truths

Passage on personal truths:

Only by letting go of them – putting them out there, placing them in front of you- can you see them clearly enough to know weather you really believe them.

     I tried to write my truth. My memory . But I couldn’t follow through the who experience. I tried and wanted to write the full story not the one I have for just the actions that were taken. The therapist want to know what happened, how you felt about the action, and what actions were taken as does everyone else. This is all mom has ever asked me. But there is more . There are thoughts and feelings , guilt and other emotions . I sometimes wonder if I ruined someones life. My mother use to tell me that if I ever falsely accused someone . I actually thought about thatwhen I was in the hospital . I wonder and many times feel as though I asked for it.

       I hear that I need to get over it or through it , that it’s done, but how can I get get over or through something when I feel that my truth can’t be told. For fear of judgement. It’s like a secret I can’t lay to rest. Not till the day I can tell the whole story. When my total experience is spoken to some one is when I think I will be done with it. Till then I remain the same.