“…and then you’re free to go”

500 pm

I got a new job today and quit my old one. I went to lunch and they called, telling me I got it, so I went back to work and signed my resignation paper. They didn’t try to keep me, which is good. ALL the drama I could ever experience with working in the same place as Rachel and Crystal has been permanently removed from my life. I make more money and I work 3-11 after orientation. Also, I’ve made the decision to move to NC. My older brother lives there and said that he’d help me get into school and let me stay with him until I get on my feet. I am pretty stoked about it. I go visit at the end of February and I’ll move out there shortly afterwards.

It hasn’t been easy telling my friends, and I haven’t told everyone about my intentions. But it’ll happen in a few days. I almost didn’t tell anyone because I wasn’t sure I could emotionally handle it. But once I realized that I had put my life on hold for our life, the life Rachel and I were supposed to make, I knew that moving to NC is necessary. I need to focus on my life, I need to focus on me. No more waiting for life to happen, I’m making it happen. I feel relieved and I’m happy for the first time this year. That’s the greatest relief I’ve felt in a long time; knowing that I’m able to do something with my life instead of waiting for someone to decide our life together is important enough to start. Today, my life starts.

"It only takes a few moments and then you’re free to go." – General Iroh, Avatar: The Last Airbender