Bubble No. 21: Depressed
Well, now I feel totally and utterly depressed. 
I always thought that peer workshops were supposed to -help- your paper, not just criticize everything possible. Forgive my grumpiness, but I just got out of a peer workshop in which I heard absolutely NO positive comments. There was no ‘Wow, that was an interesting concept’ or ‘Your style was good.’ No, it was all ‘the topic sentences are worthless’ and ‘you need to work on figuring out what you’re saying’ or my personal favorite ‘well, they were good second sentences, but your argument is ‘so what.’ 
I know I’m not a very good writer compared to what’s out there, but last time I checked, my papers aren’t that bad. I apologize for the whining, but I’m feeling very, very edgy lately. All of the mid-term papers are coming up, I’ve been working 30 hours a week consistently for about five months now, and it seems like I just can’t get much right at all. Researching for my Milton paper has taken most of my attention, and there are two other papers to be researched. (One of which we don’t get the criteria for until about two weeks before it’s due.) I don’t know how many vacation hours I have, which means I’m not sure if I’ll be able to take Thanksgiving off to write my three 12+ page papers…
I’m just stressing. Doesn’t help that I haven’t eaten since yesterday night, I’ve had coffee on an empty stomach so I feel a little ill and wired, and that I’m about three working days from a psychotic episode. *deep breathing* Again, sorry for the whining, but what good is an online diary if you can’t whimper every now and then?
I’m doing a little better than I thought I’d be doing, though. I predicted I’d be breaking down at the beginning of October. It’s almost Halloween, and it’s only now that I’m freaking out. Yay me!
*still deep breathing* That’s okay though. I’m going to go get advised, find out how close I am to graduation, (please just one last semester, Thoth! 
) and then go get lunch. Then, it’s going to take some courage to look at the written evaluations for my apparently horrific paper. I may need to purchase tissue, just in case. *sigh* Poor Ripper…he’s the one who gets stuck with me when I’m like this. Hail the man’s patience, people. He hasn’t killed me yet. Well…off to go sniffle and try to buck up a bit. Again, sorry for whining. I promise, just Brandenburg entries for the next five.
11/1 (update): I agree with Ripper. Screw ’em. The paper was good, they were way off and I just despise them all. Anyway, I’m feeling much better because I found out that I walk in May, and I’ll complete my degree by the end of June. 
YAY!!!!! *dances!* I absolutely cannot WAIT until then!!!!