[25]lightness of foot

Cooper is how old?! 9 months!!? Geez.. it’s soo crazy how fast time goes by.. I am sitting here remembering him as an itty bitty and it’s soo weird.. Or last week when I held a 4 month old–even that feels weird!

I had a light bit of spotting last Wednesday, and then period-like cramping later in the day so I was sure I was getting my period back.. Or it was implantatio spotting… Because with Coop one week after conception I had spotting/cramping and then three days later.. Positive HPT..

I bought a couple of dollar store tests.. No positive yet.. But I have yet to remember to do it in the morning.. I will try to remember to do it on Friday before we leave, mostly just because I need to make sure that I am not preggers for the wedding because I am definitely drinking! Woot!

And yah, I figure I am going to pump for comfort while I am gone.. I really don’t think I will have time before the wedding, but I kinda hope so.. less likely hood of a leakage then! haha! Otherwise I will bring my pump and possibly pump in the washroom and then after the reception at 1am-ish.

I am so excited/scared to go to the reception/wedding.  I am happy to get dressed up, celebrate my bestie getting married, hang out and dance with friends.. I am scared to leave Cooper–over night.. He hasn’t really taken a bottle since July.. He uses his Nuby soft nipply sippy all the time so I know they can do that.. But I am just scared he is going ot miss me.. Or scared he isn’t?! I am scared he is going to get up all the damn time… I am just so nervous about leaving him.. He will only be about 45 minutes away (me in Toronto, him in Brampton) and I am sooo happy my mom is going tobe there.. She at least knows him well, where leaving him with my brother and SIL would have been okay, but I would have been worried!

We are too broke to get a hotel which sucks, because we could have had hotel sex. I am tempted to just charge it (like everything else lately 🙁 ) but we really shouldn’t I guess.. We are going to stay at my other brothers place.. What would be great is sleeping in, but I just know I will be up at he crack of dawn ready to get back to my baby!!

Tomorrow is our second last swimming lesson! I am sad, I enjoy going.. But it has started to be kinda sucky with the cold weather.. So I guess it’s okay that it’s over for now, I am going to register us for the next set in February for 1-2 year kiddos.. Should be fun!

Cooper’s sleep has been weird.. and erratic.. He got up Sunday night at 3am, I feed him and he passed back out and stayed asleep until 715am!! Normally he wakes around 6am and comes to bed with me for an hour or more.. So B was all worried about where he was yesterday morning! lol.. But last night he woke up at 1030pm, cried a bit.. and then again at midnight.. and then REALLY woke up at 1am.. I let him cry for a bit, but finally went in and he was PISSED off.. I gave him some Camilia teethign drops (which are freaking amazing) and he slept until 6am– came to bed with me and slept until 9 AM!! Which was awesome, but completely screws up the day! Tonight he woke up at 830pm SCREAMING, I let him cry for about 30 minutes hoping he would go back to sleep.. no dice.. More teething drops, a boob and he is sleeping peacfully. I think it’s teeth.. Or a cold I am not 100% sure though.. Hrm..

I think I am going to header to bed now.. Just in case it’s a rough night.

xo