Time Flies

Well, so much for coming back here with anything resembling regularity. I’m fairly certain I’ll be just as irregular a poster as time goes on, so I’m considering shutting this thing down. It makes me a little sad (I’m terrible at letting things go), but really, I’ve lost touch with the very few of you who actually followed my entries simply by being the dork who doesn’t check this site. That leaves little to no reason to maintain this thing. A few of you I’m friends with on MySpace (though I check that site about as regularly as this one unless I get an email alert about a message or comment), and one or two have befriended me on Facebook (yet another site I neglect most of the time). Those may be the best ways short of email to stay in touch with me. *wry smile* I’m just not as good an internet friend as I used to be.

That said, I’ll leave you with an update on my life.

I’m still employed with Northwestern Mutual (my three year anniversary is in August). My responsibilities there have changed drastically in the past few months and will change again next week. It’s really a good thing I thrive on changing environments at work. I still love what I do, though I have found myself complaining more of late. That particular habit is on a list of habits to toss.

I’m still dating Matt. Yesterday was the two year anniversary of our first date. People keep asking me if we’re going to get engaged soon, but I really don’t see that on the horizon…unless Matt’s keeping something from me for the sake of surprise. For the record, I’m perfectly fine with that. I am happy with things as they are, and while I would welcome growth in that direction, I see no need to rush. I don’t want him jumping into something he’s not ready for simply because I’m pressuring him into it. I get a lot of flack from my roommate and a couple of co-workers who think I’m letting him neglect me or I’m not acknowledging how ‘little’ he’s putting into our relationship. I’m fully aware of the fact that I go out of my way to see him more often than he does the same for me. I’m also fully aware of why I make such a concession without it feeling like I’m getting cheated. We spend most (if not all) of our time together watching tv, cuddling, and just generally -being-. At his apartment this is possible since his roommate is usually not present or has no interest in interrupting our time together. My roommate, on the other hand, wouldn’t retreat to her room to allow us the tv alone (and I don’t have a tv in my room), nor would she give us alone time in general (she likes hanging out with me and I don’t have the heart to ask her to leave us alone), and my bed is not as roomy which makes for more awkward sleeping/cuddling. *shrugs* It’s better to spend time at Matt’s. I also don’t have any problem with him not celebrating Valentine’s Day or spending our anniversary together. This apparently makes my relationship with him ‘flawed’. Maybe I’m just weird, but I don’t see the problem. He doesn’t even really like celebrating his own birthday…anyhow…this explanation could get even more lengthy, and I’ll spare you my defensive ranting.

My roommate and I are getting along gloriously (as long as she doesn’t start criticizing my relationship). We’ve pretty much decided we’re not moving when the time comes to renew our lease. We love it here, and it feels more like home than my parents’ place. Steinway is still a bi-polar freak of a cat. Sometimes I love him, and sometimes I wish he’d die a terrible death. He’s attacked Lauren more lately, so he’s been on my good side and her shit list (not that I like him attacking her…he just hasn’t attacked me much). I really wish I knew what set him off…or better yet, how to get it through his head that attacking the people who feed you is a bad idea. We’re looking into going on some sort of road trip in the coming month or two. We’re both going a little stir-crazy, and need to travel like an addict needs his heroin. No real solid ideas as to where just yet, but we’ve started doing some research into what will fit our budgets. *grins*

Odds and ends: My cousin Katie is getting married (for the third time) to a guy she met over our family’s Christmas trip to Oregon this past December (this guy happens to be my uncle’s brother-in-law…not blood relation, but still a little weird feeling). The wedding will be April 25th not too far from where I live, which is reasonable I guess since the bride lives in Tyler, TX, and the groom lives in San Diego, CA. I believe I’ve been told he’ll be moving here to be with her. I sincerely hope this works out, for both their sakes. I adore my cousin (if I question her judgement it’s out of loving concern), and Scott’s a really nice guy from what I’ve seen in the time I’ve known him (he’s met many members of my family over the years…just somehow not Katie). This is his third marriage, too. Anyhow, cross your fingers, put in a word with the Big Guns Upstairs…whatever it is you do, do it a little extra for my family. We’re all handling this differently, and only a few of us are handling it well.

Another odd end: I’m going to be taking a symbolism course via the interwebs. It’s something a friend’s mother has been working on as a part of her Masters degree apparently, and she needed someone to take/edit the course for her in the hopes that she’ll get it accredited or whatever they do with new courses. I’m fairly excited about it, and I’m just waiting on my reading material to get started. She did send me some websites and other books to look into, but right now I can’t afford the other books, and the internet hasn’t had the same allure over the past months (I sit in front of a computer all day at work, and find myself lacking the desire to do so at home). Hopefully that last minor detail won’t get in the way of helping out a friend’s mother, but it certainly does prevent me from feeling any desire to do ‘extra reading.’ Oh well. I hope that doesn’t bite me too hard.

I guess that’s that. There’s not much else in my life these days unless it’s connected to one of the above topics, and even then, it’s on the periphery instead of being a focal point. I hope this last bit satisfies any remaining needs for updates for any of you. I’ll miss you just as I have missed you when I’ve not been around. If any of you feel inspired to stay in touch, email will be your best bet (or maybe Facebook or MySpace). You can find me at winglessDOTbutterflyATgmailDOTcom.

I hope you’re all doing well!

Signing out…

~Julie