March 14, 2007

Throw Aways

So, what is going on in my world today? I’m gonna tell you, but first let me warn you this is going to be a pity party, one guest and I am going to whine.

What the hell is going on with men today? Or women for that matter! I have been single for 4 years now. I’ve had some dates, I’ve had some fun. I’ve even had 2 VERY short relationships. I’ve learned how to make friends and even how not to expect too much from others. I think I have become a much more well rounded human bean in the process.

So, how come I am still single? How come I maybe have 3 dates a year, in a GOOOOOD year? What the hell is wrong with me that I cannot meet people and spend time with them? I’m on eharmony, I’m on Yahoo! Personals, I’m on Match….so what gives? Am I incredibly ugly? Am I repulsive in some way? I do meet people, but they just faaaaaaaade away.

There is Mauricio from Yahoo! – He sounded pretty interesting. He’s in a blues band (and ya’ll that know me IRL KNOW how I feel about the blues!) and he was born and bred in Belize. Sounds like a lot of material to talk about, right? We exchanged a few emails, then he got apologetic about being very busy, but he will write more. Blow off! I can’t figure out why either LOL

There’s Chip from eharmony – After a few years of being on this site I finally got to open communication with someone, I quit being so picky in case you are wondering. We exchanged quite a few emails but he lost his job. It seems he also lost his ability to make conversation. I called him twice in case that was a touch of depression due to the job loss (it’s been less than a week mind you) and he never picked up or called back. He did send me a 5 sentence email saying he got my message. Blow off.

Kevin from Yahoo! – GREAT guy. I really really liked this one alot. He was older, but he was sexy. He was extremely intelligent. So much so that I was worried I would not be able to keep my end of conversations up. No need to worry there, we had great conversations full of laughter and just plain old "I get you" -ed ness. He has some medical problems. I visited him in the hospital for one of them. I still kept up the nightly emails even though he couldn’t answer them because they were fun for him and me. I called him every other day while he was in the hospital just because I know how boring and sucky that can be once family leaves. Things were going absolutely wonderfully. He left the hospital and I never heard from him again. I went so far as to go by his place 2 days in a row to make sure the car had moved so I would know he was at least alive. Once I found out I finally left a message that said pretty much goodbye because I won’t be a stalker or the other woman in your marriage. I don’t know that he was married, but that is the only other thing I can think of that could have caused a total shutdown of communication. I still miss him, but blown off again.

I could go on, and on, and on. I think I will stop there tho cuz to go back further brings in criminals and I prefer to ignore that one!

At any rate, I have no clue what happened with any of these guys. I have read through the emails, re-read them, had someone else read them and no one can find a reason they might have for blowing me off. I just don’t get it.

So, the question is what is wrong with women and men today where they make this contact and bail on it? Is friendship, companionship and the possibility of love more than they want or is it just that they want everything so fast that they cannot wait for more than a moment?

It’s not like I slept with them, or even kissed any of them, so there is not the cheap factor there…

What gives? Anyone know?

Why do we throw away people so casually?
Bad manners.

We have no social skills.

We have no self worth therefore undervaule others.

You decide, leave your vote in a note if you would like 🙂