September 10, 2005

Random Thoughts

*sigh* I just had something I said to my ex pop into my head, and I still think this is a good thing.

I once told him I was calling all around trying to find him, so I could tell him I loved him. I had to tell him that day, that moment. What did I say?

"I had to tell you I love you, NOW, because I have a feeling, down deep in your soul where all the doubts and insecurities, and where it hurts the absolute most when you don’t know it, needed to hear it."

I am sort of feeling that way myself today. NOT lost and needing to hear it, but that part of my soul where all pain and bad things hide needs to hear and believe it. *shrug* Luckily these days my brain knows I am loved, maybe not by many, but by those that count, and can keep telling that spot in my soul until it smiles too.

Phoenix Babe, I want to tell that part of your soul I love you, but I know it would not be the I love you that it needs at the moment. Just know that I do and when that part stops hurting so much tuck mine in there to make it smile ok?

:)sweet

Phoenix_Reborn

September 11, 2005

that made me cry… but in a good way for a change. Thank you so much… your friendship means a lot to me.

RYN .. the limp hair was a joke. I just had to explain why there were limp peni’ on my diary. I am 4 days on the HoMeter .. but I think it is more like since May sometime. Pathetic that I dont know the last time. Anyways .. thanks for ur advise. I always need it. Remember to watch what is around the corner in your neighbourhood. But I do need to get my hair cut, tomorrow as I can get it for free.