I thought i was deleted…

I thought i was deleted but then I just realized I was retarded. I think im going to pay for the OD plus subscription today. I have been wanting to do it for years, and well i just HAVENT. Im not sure why i havent, i just never did. Opendiary has helped me in so many situations in the past years. From breakups to weightloss to anger management. I want to start exercising again and being religious about it, but i cant seem to find my motivation. If i pay for OD PLUS then i would have to write in it, or id feel like im losing money..you know? ANYWAY! Tomorrow is my day. Monday is MY day. I know i have said this several times, but im feeling ugh. I havent gained that MUCH weight since i quit exercising in July (eeks) 4 months ago, but still 2 pounds a month is a lot. A LOT. Half a pound a week. It is SO much easier to gain weight than it is to lose it. Only if it were opposite. I really need a plan. A strategy. A game plan. With taking so many hours in school and working as much as i have it makes it darn near impossible to workout, at least thats my excuse. I have so many goals i want to accomplish. I need to get out of debt. Which i have BARELY even tried to do. I want to get my FICO score up to at least 750, right now im sitting at 562, with a credit score higher than 8% of americans. Thats so sad to me.

I am having to take out student loans for next semester which is bummer. I want to buy a scion xB so bad i can taste the box car. Grr.

Goals. Why not start my 2007 goals now? Bikini time really ISNT THAT FAR AWAY! Start now…right???

Inspiration:

Scion xB

Musical Theater

Bikini Body

AND GETTING OUT OF DEBT!

All My Inspirations that keep me doing what im doing, and to remind me to start doing what i havent..

-Court