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I just feel like im always going to be like this. I want to lose, I want to be healthy. Its just everytime i look in the mirror i see what I dont like about my body. It would be so much easier to just get lyposuction and cut and suck it off, but its too expensive and im afraid of needles and knifes..lol. I want to do this. My show is the first weekend of december. I graduate 2 weeks later. I have to do this for me…and if not im going to look like this in 10 years….

I want to go to law school. I want to be happy and fit. Being overweight is discriminated against, regardless what anyone says. Tonight im going home and taking pictures of myself..and parts i hate. Im going to post them for favorites only. Tomorrow it starts. I know i said that last week, but sitting here uncomfortably with my fat made me really upset, and motivated me to get it done. Ive got to go back to what i was doing months ago. I cant believe i stopped when i was doing so well…

Some what depressed with myself

-Court