[day 160] Its all going to work out

Simple as that.  No matter how horrible situations may seem, it always works out. Eventually.  So today i worked. YAY. Or not. heh.  Tomorrow im bartending for 10 hours straight. Its going to be crazy but hopefully i will make 200$ buckaroos. One could only hope=) I went to the college today to turn in some papers and talked to the lady that got the LEAD of the show. She was telling me how she couldnt believe it and blah blah. Moreless i told her i was never going to do another one of keiths shows again. His loss, not mine. They were talking about calling me because Little red dropped out, but instead he put his assistants daughter in the role, f*cking theater politics. Im sick of them. Too much drama involved in theater. sooooooooo once again, i say..IM DOONNEE!

I AM SERIOUSLY DONE!

I put the exclamation so you could understand my seriousness. Everyones like..dont do that to yourself, blah blah. Ive realized that im only HELPING my stress level. I dont want to stroke out over shows. No thanks. Sooo…After finding all of this out about the cast and recasting and whatnot in a 20 minute conversation, i went home with my aggrivated self and changed clothes so i could hit up curves. I work out so hard when im pissed, but then after i work out pissed i feel pooped, but somewhat calm. Its really weird. =) I was sweating, A LOT and beads were rolling down my face..lol. I decided to start jogging on the recovery boards instead of kind of doing the butterfly jump thing i have always done. That way im getting in shape more. Piss me off i dare you, i will only workout harder..please help me out! Sarcasism? hmm. OH yeah and my boyfriends parents (whom i live with) bought a treadmill, yay! This makes it even easier to workout!! How friggin exciting!! So hopefully my goal of 20 pounds will definatly be accomplished.

I was invited to cast party tonight, but then i decided not to go because IM NOT IN THE CAST! Hellooo. Did they forget that point when i was invited?! Id rather not show my face at those parties, i have nothing to talk about. I havent been to practices or even get a role…thats usually what cast parties consist of, countless recollections of what happened at parcitce and how "I COULDNT BELIEVE YOU DID THAT" …hardyharhar. Bitter? Nahhh. =l  ANYWAY! Im going to go home i think and shower, and then get ready for my 10 hour shift that starts tomorrow morning and ends tomorrow night. Funnnn!!!!

When life hands you a lemon, make lemonade. Other than that…im outtie=)

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