[day 153] Shit Happens…

What I ate today:
1/2 mocha frappichino with no whip cream  –  about 150 calories
Grilled Salmon & Shrimp w/ black beans & broccoli – dunno but lots of protein=)
Current Weight – 181      2 pound loss from last week! YAY!

 Shit happens…and then you get over it. Right? Yesterday i was super pissed and HURT, but today im fine. I understand that stuff happens in theater, but the thing is this, im not new to this group. Ive been doing shows with this director since 2002.  Thats what i didnt understand. Im just done with him though. So oh well. Im just going to use the time that i spent focusing on theater on something different. Like working out and actually losing more weight. It has just motivated me to get strict again and start working out hardcore. So. yeah. You can only take all the negative things that happen and turn them into a positive motivation to accomplish something else. Which is what im doing. Yesterday i was heartbroken, today im just bleh. I usually get over things fairly easily. So its just working out instead of practicing, and working more.  I told my manager today and he was like..well thats great about not getting a part, then i made a face, and im thinking uhhh no its not. He said that he was sorry but hes glad because now he could give me a lot more bar shifts. A LOT MORE! Which is what i want. So hopefully i can save $2,000 by the end of summer. I have made goals!

          SUMMER GOALS
1. Lose 20 pounds this summer.
2. Work out at LEAST 4 times a week.
3. Save $2000 dollars.
4. Work @ least 35 hours a week.   
5. Actually practice guitar

(supposibly brinkers pay for tuition if you keep 30 hours AVERAGE for 6 months) YESS that would be a freakin 1500 check they would give me..woopie! So that would be even better, i have to work more to save $2000 grand, and then if i do work more, brinkers pays my tuition (which is already getting paid). Isnt that awesome?! YAY! So thats whats going on. Also i think i may apply for a corporate trainer position to just to do it. Maybe they will move me up even more. Ive done server, trainer, bartender. Obviously i could host, to go, and expo too. The only thing i guess i couldnt do would be to cook, but who really wants to cook?

I graduate from with my associates degree in December, and then i will transfer to a university that is like 15 minutes away. Im going to take the spring off, and start full time in the fall, only because ive taken a mini session, im taking summer 1 off and then i go summer 2 and then full time in the fall. Ive got a lot of my plate. If brinkers pays me for my tuition (which is already paid for) then thats an extra $1500 in my pocket on top of the $2000 that im going to save. I would like to have $20,000 saved in my bank account by the time i graduate college for the second time which is in 2-3 years from december. Its sooo do-able. As long as i can save about 5k a year. Which is hard because i blow money like a hoe blows a..well anyway.

Im glad to admitt that ive done almost all of my new years resolutions and i still have 6 months left of this year! Wow its going by so quick.

My New Years Resolutions
1. get out of debt  -ha i should work a little harder at this one!!
2. lose 25 – 35 pounds    So far its sitting at a 30 pound loss
3. save $3,000   – this is SOOO do-able
4. Do a good deed   Donated 15 inches of my hair to Locks Of Love

Anyway. thats enough of my blabbing on and on. Im sure noone reads all of this, but its ok, because i dont think i would either. LOL! I have to read my favs and leave some notes for RIZZLE! =)

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