smallest change that made a big difference

What was the smallest change in your life that made the biggest difference in your life?

I would have to say that it would be committing to myself to be healthy for REAL this time. For years ive been saying "im really going to lose weight, im really going too" or how bout this one "this time im serious" then the next week after not seeing 50 pounds gone, i would give up. Everytime i would just give up. Ive been going strong now for 97 days. Ive given up carbonated drinks. Ive started paying attention to what im putting into my mouth and exercising much more. So far ive lost 25 pounds. It makes a difference what you can do, when you really want to do it. Not saying that before i didnt want too, because my intentions were good, i just didnt have the strive or determination to keep going. Now, i do. I have realized that i need to stop whining about my problems and do something about it, because the longer i sit on the couch and complain that im fat while eating cookies, the more weight im going to gain.

My self esteem has risen. I feel better about myself. My old clothes are starting to fit. When i look at myself in the mirror i dont feel ugh, im starting to appreciate the work that ive done so far. Since 2002 i had gained 45 pounds. I didnt know how it happened i just woke up 3 years, almost 4 years later and realized that my clothes didnt fit and i knew that i wasnt happy. 45 pounds? Where does it come from? Well, it comes from months and months of me making excuses that im going to do it, and not doing it. So slowly but steadily i began to hate myself. Then i woke up.

Christmas day i woke up when i realized i could barely get a pair of my favorite jeans up, and i made a promise to myself that tomorrow was the day. That i couldnt keep doing this to myself. Im way to young to have bad health and be so much overweight. Everyone told me that when you go to college you gain freshman 25. Everyone gains weight in college. That was another excuse, among many more. So i went from 165 (size 12/14), to 210 (size 16), to now 185 (closer to a 14), and i will be back to where i was, and i will actually make my LONG TERM goal this year. I have full faith in myself. That i will reach the 165 and then make the 135lb mark. I have no doubts. It may take awhile, it may take longer than this year, but i know and believe it will happen.

The outlook that i have of myself is different than it was before..

The difference from then to now, is i know that i can do it. My small change is believing myself, and seeing the results. My small change will make the biggest difference in my life, it will make me something that i havent been in a long time…..healthy.

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