Another year

(cross posted on myspace)

This year is different than the last.  Instead of feeling lonely and out of place, I feel indifferent and listless.  I don’t feel out of place, but I don’t feel like I fit completely either.  But that’s basically how I feel any place that I go, so it’s not a particularly new sensation. 

I know people this year, even if the amount of people I know is few.  I adore those who I do know and that is enough for me.  Seeing Tali and Niki again reminded me that there are some very good points about coming back to Bloomington, an event I have to admit I wasn’t sure I was looking forward to.

Collins, for once, feels like some small piece of home.  The people here hold some familiarity.  But that doesn’t mean I’ve stopped missing Noblesville.

Yes, sadly enough, I do miss home.  Probably more than anyone else here does.  I miss Noblesville.  I miss my family.  I miss my friends, whether it be those that still reside in Noblesville or those that have left Noblesville for college just as I have.  I think I’m the only person from Noblesville that actually likes it. xD

Bloomington isn’t so bad either, though.  It’s beautiful and full of fresh air and a myriad of different people.  I can learn here and grow and discover new things.  The buildings are old and made of thick stone and when the sky is dark and the moon is high and bright, I can see tall buildings dimly lit in the distance.  There are full trees and sweet smelling flowers and all of it makes me feel creative and full of ideas. 

I met a boy on move in day.  Andres.  He had dark hair and dark eyes and made me laugh.  We talked about moving in and getting pictures taken and how green the Collins shirts were this year.  He’s a freshman living on the floor below us.  I wouldn’t mind seeing him again, but he’s hardly who is on my mind lately.

God, I sound so overdramatic. xD  Blame it on the angsty music Gen has provided me with lately.

Well, here are some things I need to do:
1. Prepare school bag for classes
2. Shower
3. Try to write
4. Buy school books
5. RP
6. See if Steffi wants to start the prequel
7. Download more music (feel free to send me stuff… 😀 yousendit.com or AIM! hee.)
8. Buy a digital camera (er… long term goal)
9. "Take out" the trash
10. Figure out where the hell I put my book so I can freaking read it already

I’m off to do something productive.  …… Ha.  Who am I kidding.  I’m off to listen to some Led Zeppelin and some Vienna Teng and then try to write something not shitty.  ^_^