Random thought

I wrote this earlier this morning (well yesterday now) during church service as tears well up in my eyes and fall down my face and I wipe them away. I was going to add more to this but I’ll leave it as it was.

Maybe I grieve/mourn him still because I never got to say goodbye or celebrate his life with everyone else who loved him, maybe not that because his best friend wasn’t able to make it to his funeral and she was fine maybe because she knows he is in a better place and I know that for sure, so why do I feel this way still?…Like I’m lost without him.