white gummi bears

Mood: shifting

Music: Follow Me 

Interesting thought: today was the last day of high school for me.  

    hmmmm…

the last day of high school. i guess it’s weird how fast time flies. so much has happened in 4 years of high school, and it seems like it all happened rather quickly. i’m 18. a senior. almost to be a graduate. 4 years ago i didn’t know God at all. i’m more grown up. this past year i’ve done a lot of that. i’ve learned more. i have a hollywood video card. i have about 20 times more compassion than i used to. in some ways that is good – in others it’s hard.

but some things stay the same.

i’m still blonde. i still take a long time falling asleep at night. i still enjoy going to the park. i still like pizza. i still don’t like being alone.

how big a ‘step’ in life is graduation? is it normal to be frightened of graduating half the time? why don’t responsibilities always come with more priveledges?  why does fear have a say in what people do? why does love have to hurt? i wish people always changed for the better. is the saying ‘better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all’ really true? how come people can’t accept each other? why do i like white gummi bears the best?

i sent out invitations to people to come to my graduation. and i sat for a while thinking about who to send one to. some people i really wanted to come, but didn’t invite. is that weird? no. not really. not if you already know that they couldn’t (or wouldn’t, whatever the case may be.)

i’m a little sleepy. this working from 6:30 – 11 takes a bit out of you.

take care guys.

(), tristan