Don’t worry, be healthy!

Bo and I talked about dating last night. Neither of us are sure how we feel.  Infact, we both have the same problem. We love somebody we can’t be with. We know how we are suppose to feel when we like someone, and we just aren’t sure if we feel that with each other. We decided to see each other more to see where it goes. We definitely have fun with each other, and have things in common.  I love Eric so much. I want to feel that with someone else, and I hate that I haven’t been able to.  He was the one that said I should try dating him. Bo is a great guy. One of those people that everyone loves. My mom knows him from way back and loves him too. I don’t want to force anything, but it’s worth a shot to try.

I joined the gym again today. I really don’t want to "diet" anymore. Everytime I try I just give up. Instead, I’m going to try to live a healthy lifestyle and not worry so much about trying to lose weight, because everytime I do I just give up. I am more concerned about being healthy now more than ever. I’m just going to have a well-balanced diet, and not deprive myself of everything. I’m going to work out at least 4-5 times a week. I’m not going to weigh myself until a few months go by. If I lose a few pounds, great! But its not going to be my main concern. Maybe start doing a little weight lifting to gain a little muscle. I’ll start walking on the treadmill at first, at a fast pace uphill until my knees feel a little better so I can start jogging. I just want to wake up in the morning and not feel so groggy and lazy.  I miss my upbeat normal self.