It’s 2012, and we’re not dead.

I think I finally perfected my pillow making abilities. I made these pillows for my mother that I was so proud of. I really want to start making more and selling them, I’m just not sure how to go about promoting my etsy website. Really, I would be happy enough if I could just sell one item a day. If I sell a set of pillows for $29.00, That’s usually about a $20-$24.00 profit depending on materials used. One item a day would give me an about $150 bucks a week which would help me a lot. A set of pillows only takes me 30 minutes to make now that I know what I’m doing.  Then maybe someday if it grows I could do that full time. I would only have to sell 2-3 items a day to make what I make at my job now. That would make me so happy if I could do that for a living. Sit at home, make pillows…..doing something I love doing. I need to stop doubting myself and just do it.

Eric and I had sex last night….finally! I missed him. We’ve both been busy with the holidays and such.  I went away for 4 days, then he went away for a few days.  Now that we had sex, I just want more and more. I can’t get enough of him. I need to lose some weight so I feel better about myself. I want to be able to have fun with him, but my weight holds me back from things right now. It’s the new year, and I’m going back to the gym, and going to do the atkins for a couple months.  I would like to lose 35 pounds, but my first goal is 20. Those 20 pounds would make such a difference about how I feel right now. I need to do this.  I can’t give up.  I’m going to log my progress in here daily if I can.  I think if I write about how I feel it will really how me with the process.  I want a boyfriend, and it will only get harder to find someone the fatter I get. I really miss having a boyfriend. Don’t get me wrong, being single has it’s advantages, but I miss the cuddling, holding hands, calling them up whenever just to say hello. It’s the little things like that…..feeling like you always have someone to go to to feel safe and loved.  Ugh….how do I always end up talking about this shit? Anyways…..DIET….MAKE PILLOWS.  Those are my New Years resolutions. Get a boyfriend? Eh….maybe next year.