Is it over yet?

Christmas…..It’s so wonderful, yet so stressfull at the same time. Am I glad it’s over? I would be lying if I said no. Even though Christmads isn’t suppose to be about gifts, one of my favorite parts about it is giving gifts. I love putting a smile on a loved one’s face. I try to be as personal as I can with gifts, but sometimes it’s difficult. I got my dad a roasting pan with a removeable rack, which is what he wanted last year, but he got the wrong one. So I had to show my brother up and get him the right one. hehe. Anyways, he loved it. I got my mom some super soft PJ pants. (She loves to be comfy , just like me.) I also got her a framed blown up picture I took myself of a butterfly on a purple flower. She loved the picture when I posted it on facebook, and said she wanted a copy. She seemed happy with that. I got Reeree a couple books. She’s been complaining lately about how she read every book in my mom’s house and had nothing left to read. lol. I got my brother a gift card to Cabela’s and some chocolate covered cherres. My brother is a new hunter, and told me he needs all the gear he can get.  I figured with the gift card he could get what he wants. I bought Erica some knives and a wok…..which Eric helped me wrap oh so gracefully. It looked like an elephant by the time we were done wrapping it. I had asked him for help because I didn’t want her knowing it was a pot of some sort, which she would have known if I wrapped it as it was. I picked up an animal making balloon kit and a "How to draw Dinosaurs" kit at the Christmas tree shops for Jerramy and Daerik. Hopefully they enjoy them. And last but not least I got a gel candle up north from my aunt’s gift shop for ML. It smells sooooo amazing….and Eric a back scratcher and a gift card to Texas Roadhouse. He loves that place. So really, I didn’t go overboard with the gifts, but I still spent a good 300 bucks……which to me is a lot of money right now. I’m behind on rent.  I stil owe eric $67.00 from last months rent, and it’s almost the 1st again.  Time has been flying by, and it seems as though I don’t have enough money to keep up with it. Taxes are coming soon, so that should help.

Trying to diet again.  I hate doubting myself, but it’s all I have done lately. I can’t seem to lose a pound if my life depended on it. I want to get back to the gym, but thats another 99 bucks that I don’t have. I want to do weight watchers as they are having a special right now….but I can’t afford that either. Trying to pay back my school loan, now I have these dental bills from having two teeth pulled and two cavities. Behind on the electric bill as usual, and I got suckered into a credit card, and I need to pay that so I don’t screw mt credit up even more. And to top it off, my income comes from a job I hate. While I’m sitting here writing in my diary at work, you might think "Wow, what a cool job to be able to sit there all night on your ass and play games." Well, I have a bout 2 hours during the night if I’m not busy to rub one off if I want to, but the rest of the night sucks. People are jerks, and my work is too complicated for what I get paid to do. And if I don’t do it right, or figure out shit that’s gone wrong, I get shit on.  So, I’m taking a free CNA course in March. It doesn’t pay much more than I’m making, in fact, the starting pay for them is about what I make. But  at least I’ll be doing something worth while. Helping people. and I know people that have been doing it for a while get paid pretty well. The hard part is going to be taking this 3 month course Monday through Friday while I’m working at the same time.  I’ll have to get out of work at 7AM and go to Maine Medical at 8AM-2PM. Yuck. Hope I can handle it ok, as I really want this. I need this.
 

I suppose I should go do something more productive.